cravings.
7.3.07 // 03:24

oh freak. im needing loadsa things now.

i want to just sit and talk at starbucks/coffee bean, hot chocolate, trip to the airport, books, caramel frappe, hot chocolate, coffee, THE BEACH! yes, a very much needed, barefooted long walk+talk at east coast. i wanna feel the sand in my toes, the waves coming up to my feet, and just have a loooooong talk to someone. to just forget about the world and sit at the breakwater, enjoying the sea breeze. and eat mcspicy meal. i miss that burning sensation the burger gives me. somehow it burns all my sorrows along. the spicier -till i cant speak, the better. i like it that way. my mind is running a thousand times faster. thots keep whizzing and spiralling and spinning in my head. shit, i need to wake up early tomorrow and im still up blogging. im dead meat. oh man, i don't feel like going out but what to do, i havta accompany my grandmama to the hospital for her monthly checkup. i wanna drown myself in books, lotsa lotsa thick storybooks. can't daydream no more for my fantasy world is crushed. i want hot chocolate. i need sugar. gah, i need some form of distraction. im confused. and im still wondering why and how? i need, really really really really need a mug of hot chocolate. like NOW. but strange, i dont feel like having a hug. and NO, DONT OFFER ME ANY HUGS. just leave me alone and i'll be fine by myself. im in absolutely no mood to be a happy bunny right now. im talking bullshit, so ignore this entry if u cant understand what i just babbled, since theres a high possibility that i too wont be able to understand what shit im spitting once ive regained my concious mind.

damnit, im in a mess.